sin plucks upon sin. i dont know if its true for me. but i hope it is for others. today, i talked with my family on the webcam. my mum informed me that my sis is not performing well, just gt scolded by her piano teacher cos she did a theory pp badly. suddenly feel quite worried for her. dont know if its becos i havent seen her in mths. but for sure, this is the first time i gt this uneasy feeling. then before that, i discovered a shocking event regarding my granny. utterly disgusted by her actions, dont wish to enumerate her crimes here. so now im feeling very depressed, nothing cheers me up. plus the fact that i feel that ive been spending too much money. went to bowl a few days ago n tmr, im going again. the 20 bucks i just received yesterday for my pay, its alr used to treat my cousins. if this continues, i think im like a prodigal boy. on recollection, if im now in sing, i could hav save a lot of money n use it for rainy days. i really dont know how i end up in the situation. vulnerable n bushed, thats wat i am. i dont think im going to work as a waiter anymore. it just doesnt suit me, no use forcing myself. suddenly my interest on psychology grew, how it affects us, how it can cause someone to commit suicide. haiz.
poignant
frail
downcast
suicide?
im afraid of death
sad
